Some folks out there would like to see me move forward in my music dreams. Travel around the US or even the world, playing tours, getting a label, and all that stuff, but honestly I don’t need to do all that. I just do music just for fun and the enjoyment of it, that’s it. I don’t take it seriously. I’m not desperate in making a name for myself like so many are out there.

Nothing wrong with wanting to make a name for yourself, but with my own music I don’t really care. I just liked to put my original songs out there for feedback, to see if people enjoy them or not. The honest criticism toward my music either good or bad, is actually a good thing to me. The negative criticism, inspires me to get better and try to improve.

I like making music for the internet. I just put it out there and see what happens. See what kind of response it gets. I don’t get defensive over negative criticism like so many out there do, ’cause negative criticism is actually good for you. When you’re being attacked by the public, being defensive of yourself will not get people to like your music. Sorry but it’s the truth. If you want to make your music better and improve, you have to listen to them. Make your songs better, and then the negative feedback will turn into positive. That’s how the music world goes.

While negative criticism don’t really bother me, I do wish people wouldn’t be so mean and offensive about it. Do honest criticism with more detail and insightful feedback without the bashing. Nothing hateful like, “You fuckin’ suck” or something like that. What I want to hear is, “You should sing in key. Sing with more emotion, guitar playing needs to be more energetic.” See? Not that hard to do. Give feedback with class.

Nope. A lot of people just want to be hateful and nasty. I’m not looking to be big with my music, ’cause music is what I do. It’s a passion of mine and in my blood.

Kev

So I said I was going to do some fun shopping at the mall today.

I picked up a few movies on DVD: “Hugo” (the new Martin Scorsese movie), “The Way” (The Martin Sheen movie, directed by Emilio) and “Martha Marcy May Marlene” (the Elizabeth Olsen starred film, I heard it was really good). I haven’t seen any of these movies, and looking forward to checking them out this weekend.

I also picked up two more “Walking Dead” books (5 & 6). I think there a total of 15 “Walking Dead” books in all, I’m trying to collect them all by buying two at a time. I’ll start reading the “Walking Dead” books soon, after I finish reading a different book I’m reading now.

I also ended up buying Adele’s album, “21”, just out of curiosity. Everyone’s talking about her, everyone loves her. I’ll admit it, I shouldn’t bash her when haven’t even heard the album, so I figure it would be cool to give her a listen, then I’ll give my thoughts. Maybe I’ll end up having a change of heart with her and end up liking that album? Who knows. It’s just that I’m tired of that “Rolling In the Deep Song”, maybe her music will grow on me. If I don’t like the album, I’ll just sell it at a used record shop or something.

I’m about to write up that, “Act of Valor”, movie right now.

Kev

Have you ever noticed the videos on my youtube channel been kind of blurry and picture quality is not as good? It’s because I’ve been uploading them with the resolution of the Windows Media file being too big. I’ll admit it. I’m not an expert at video cameras.

I think the best resolution for youtube would be, 320×240. That’s what the site itself recommends.

All those 50 videos I made in the past, I always wondered why the video quality wasn’t picture perfect, and I think I just figured it out.

I think I’m going to redo that Johnny Cash “Hurt” cover and re-upload it to a better resolution so the picture can be more clear.

I’ve been filming videos for the past couple of years, and I wish I thought of this before. Oh well. No big deal. You can still see the videos fine and hear me fine.

While this kind of does piss me off a bit after doing all that work over the years, I would hate to delete all those videos and re-do ’em all again, ’cause it would take so much time. So I won’t bother. Oh well. It’s a lesson learned for future video releases though.

I’ll be sure to make the resolution lower from this point on. I’m a newbie at digital video cameras, a learning experience indeed.

Kev

This week I’m taking a full week off of exercising and bodybuilding. It’s not that I’m losing interest in it, I’ll never give it up, it’s just that you need to take a break once in a while. I haven’t had a break since the last one around Christmas time. You won’t lose muscle in a week with no exercise, it’s actually good. You need the plenty of resting, so they can heal and grow. So taking week breaks is good sometimes. Plus your body needs to recharge and restart again. Don’t want to over do yourself. Some bodybuilders workout all year long non stop with no breaks at all, not good in my opinion. Pretty dangerous and you’ll kill yourself working out all year with no breaks.

Later this week, I’m planning to go to the mall to check out the movie, “Act of Valor”, the Navy Seals war movie. Looks pretty good. I’m probably gonna check it out on Thursday.

I’ll try to get the Johnny Cash “Hurt” cover up today. On Johnny’s date of death in Sept., I’ll do a bunch more Cash covers. Kurt Cobain’s date of death is coming up soon, so I’ll want to cover a few Nirvana songs for youtube.

Why am I doing all these cover songs for youtube? Am I going to start my own cover band down the road? Maybe I’d like to. If I were to get a band, we’d do a mix of both covers and originals. Plus, doing covers is fun. I just want to perform all my favorite songs that meant a lot to me over the years. Prove people I can be a good musician.

Kev

I never did love songs ’cause like I said before, I thought I would get embarrassed doing them and a bit shy over it. I thought I would suck doing them and might get laughed at. Doing this Whitney Houston cover, gave me a little more confidence ’cause the song is getting good feedback already.

I’m probably gonna end up doing more love song covers. I might try, “Unchained Melody” sometime.

For original love songs, I never wrote those either but it don’t hurt to give it a try??? If I want to get more female fans, or even get a nice girlfriend, I could try to write an original love song, down the road. Writing love songs could get you attracted by the ladies and you could get lucky. Hmmmm….

Kev

In facebook, I see a lot of complaints of single women complaining about how bad men are in relationships. Women also accuse men that all we want is sex from them. Not true at all. A lot of us guys want to be loved and be cared for just as much as the women do.

In my opinion, women can be much worse at the dating scene and relationships. They can be so confusing and you can’t understand them sometimes. Yeah, I dated women before and got nothing but bad experiences out of them. So I gave up on the dating scene, and just enjoyed life. I’ve had plenty of crushes on women, which a lot of them rejected me of course. Even if you want to spend time with them as a friend, just a friend that’s it, they’ll reject you on that too, when it’s not like a date or anything. Women are just weird, I’ll tell ya.

That is my goal is to find the love of my life someday, and those are really hard to find. I would like to get married and start a family of my own down the road, most definitely. It’s all about finding the right woman. I can treat women like a queen if I can find the one who knows what true love is all about.

True love isn’t about money or how good looking you are, it’s about caring for you as the person you are, no matter what happens. I’m going to try and get myself a nice lady friend, this year, hopefully. I’m not going to look for one online, I’m going to have some confidence and try to meet somebody somewhere in town. Probably the gym would be the best place to meet somebody. There are some nice looking women that workout at my local gym in Greenwich. I would very much go for a local woman, I won’t do the online long distance dating thing.

I’ll admit, that I have a lot to learn with women myself, and I’m going to do something about it this year. Actually do something, and not talking about it. Start off as friends first and see where things go from there. That’s the way I’m going to do it. That’s the best way.

Of course, there are fears of rejections, getting your heart broken and getting screwed by women, but I guess you have to go through all the bad women before you find the perfect one you want.

I’m no relationship expert, I’m just learning from other people. I hope I’ll actually get somebody soon.

Kev

I appreciate most Holidays, but like most people, Valentine’s Day is one that I absolutely hate. Probably the same reason just like everyone else, hating to see myself single on that day.

With that being said, the single life is not so bad. I actually love living the single life. It’s actually great. You don’t have to deal with spending hours talking on the phone with your woman everyday, you don’t have to deal with any bullshit and drama that’ll end the relationship, all that stuff.

I will get myself a nice girlfriend someday. I’m just not rushing that either. I won’t get into any details about my personal life, but I can give you an idea of the kind of woman that I would want to have later in this blog post.

I’m just amazed on how so many people out there who can’t stay single. After breaking up or getting divorced with their loved ones, the next week after, they hook up with somebody new. People work fast in relationships. I’m like seriously? People hate being alone that much? Seeing all that in facebook is kind of crazy.

I’m actually pretty proud being a loner, ’cause I admit, sometimes I hate people in general. I’m learning that people can sometimes have bad socializing skills, you can’t trust anybody, and people can be weird sometimes. I guess I am a bit anti-social, but not that bad. All I want to do is play my guitar and workout in the gym. That is my love and companion.

As far as my dream girl goes, I just want her to share my passion for music and movies. So we can go see live music and go to the movies together, all the time. Somebody who doesn’t mind me talking about that stuff a lot. It’s better having the same passions and having lots in common, so she can be easier to get along with. She doesn’t have to be a fitness lady, but it could be a plus. She also must not smoke & drink. I also would like somebody who would respect me the person that I am. Somebody’s who’s just nice and friendly. Someone who is not a “user” and is not into drama. Age doesn’t make a difference to me either, she can be a little younger or a little older (just not too old, lol). Somebody who won’t use you for money or any of that stuff. She also doesn’t have to be hot or beautiful, but it would be kind of cool.

I’ll get somebody at some point. It’ll happen, when a relationship wants to happen, I guess. No matter what you think of someone, there is someone for everyone. No matter who they are or what they look like.

I realize I better get somebody soon before I get any older.

Kev

Some of you may wonder why I have a blog site. Is it for attention or for my own ego? I’m sure I’ve been accused of that stuff but not really. I post on a blog on a regular basis for a few reasons…

1. To clear up all the bullshit that is said about me online – People seem to enjoy talking about me online over the years and make up a lot of bullshit about me that is not even true. So this is one reason I started a blog, as a way to defend myself from all the negative bullshit that is being said about me.
2. It’s my own place for freedom of speech – I’ve been kicked off and banned off of other forums over the years, when all I wanted to do was speak my mind like everyone else. So I figure I start a blog, as a place to have my own freedom of speech, where I can talk about anything I wanted.
3. I needed a place to promote my music – Over the years, I’ve used my blogs to promote my music. I use it to post my songs on, promote my projects, and gigs.
4. I needed a place to rant about stuff – A blog is a great tool to bring out your honest rants. Sometimes my rants still angers people to this day, but that’s okay. I actually like it when people get pissed at what I have to say. It lets me know that they’re paying attention.
5. A blog is just a hobby, something fun to do – Instead of posting in other forums and blogs, I needed a place where I can discuss my passions in life like movies, music, wrestling, fitness, etc. or whatever, so I used a blog to write about all that stuff.

This may sound crazy but a blog can help you in life. It helps make you feel like a better person expressing yourself publicly, that it shows that you’re not afraid to speak your mind on anything you wanted.

I don’t blog for nothing.

Kev

In guitar playing, I’m really trying my best to become a better player and learn to play more professionally. Trying to learn the 7 modes of the major scale to see how they work, studying improvisation, learning how to count rhythm with a metronome, would like to learn arpeggios & sweep picking, music theory, etc. I’m trying to learn all the stuff a lead guitar player needs to learn.

I’m even thinking about giving up the singing and just have someone else sing for me, but not sure yet. It would give me an opportunity to concentrate on guitar playing only.

I want to take guitar playing instruction more seriously and become a better player, so I can start jamming with other musicians. Hoping to either join a band or form a band of my own someday.

I want to become a better electric guitar player. Just play good rock guitar.

Kev