Once in a blue moon, I’ll search my staged-name, Kev Brock, in google for laughs. I hardly ever search my name in google ’cause admittedly I’m kind of scared of what may show up in google when I search my name. Why? It’s because chances are I’m always going to find anonymous pages and youtube videos that are attacking me and to mock me. I get this stuff all of the time. Been getting this stuff for the last several years or more. People using youtube and anonymous pages in facebook, twitter, wordpress, etc. to mock me. I used to be upset about this stuff but over the years I learned to get used to it. I learned that you can do nothing about this stuff and just let it go. Let ’em have at it.

The truth is, I never read that stuff on a regular basis and I never read what they have to say about me. No lie. Not making it up. They set that stuff up hoping to grab my attention and hoping to get under my skin. That’s the only reason they do it. They do it hoping to upset me and to drive me crazy. They do it to piss me off ’cause these losers get laughs out of it. The thing is, when people do stuff like this, I can almost immediately tell who is behind these anonymous pages. These guys aren’t fooling anyone. I can immediately tell who they are by their writing styles. When people do this it is mostly people who I’ve already talked to on the internet before. At first, they appear to be supporters or fans of mine but when they pull stuff like this that means they stabbed me in the back and they’re nothing to me. Watch who you trust out there. Not everyone is a fan/friend of yours. You can’t trust anybody online. Period.

It’s cruel that people do immature stuff like this but why do they do it? I think it’s obvious they do it out of jealous rage and envy. I’m not giving them enough attention they think they deserve so they go out of their way to use an anonymous page to mock me. The only reason they do it is ’cause they’ve seen other people do it and they decided to join the bandwagon. They do it to give themselves laughs and to entertain themselves.

Like I said previously people really get off on mocking and bashing me anonymously. Why do it anonymously? Because they’re cowards, pretty much. They don’t want me to find out who they really are which most of them fail miserably at plus they do it to save their own reputation.

I know I’m a target for internet tabloids and misinformation but that’s how I look at all of this stuff. Well, I’m kind of entertained and amused that people would waste all of that time to do that stuff. I’m always gonna get this stuff. People mocking me on the internet. It’s never gonna end.

It doesn’t bother me anymore like it used to, though. All it does is just giving me even more attention. It helps promotes my blog. I’ve gotten more supporters and blog readers ’cause of this stuff so it’s all good.

Why do they waste time creating another blog, twitter, youtube, facebook account to mock me when I’m not hard to find at all? Leave me a comment here. Drop me an e-mail. Or hell, if you have the guts to talk shit by phone or to my face, I’m game for that as well.

Sad coming from people who are adults, ya know? I wish these idiots would get themselves help. Get themselves a life and find better things to do. I feel sorry for them. I really do.

Kev

No matter what I do or say, I’m always going to get people who have an obsessive hatred against me. Trust me, I have many haters and trolls out there with an obsessive hatred who will never quit what they do. “Obsessive hatred”… it’s a psychology problem meaning that people who hate you and they always will. They won’t quit and they’re obsessed with it. I’ve had the same person hating me for several years or way more. Quite a lot of people are like this to me in this day and age, not naming names publicly. I see some of them are still going too to this day.

There is no reason for them to do it. Haters are gonna hate. Here’s a few memes that I found giving you advice on how to deal with situations like this.

People constantly hate on me in social networking sites and some of them go as far as creating anonymous accounts and anonymous blogs to bash me. If that’s how they wanna handle stuff, then so be it. All that is doing is giving me even more attention so sometimes bad publicity is good.

The thing is, I don’t care what people have say about me anymore. I’m strict on moderating comments ’cause of this reason so hope you guys can understand. I’ve had plenty of people lose their tempers at me quite a lot and they go off bashing me. People can bash me else where on the internet but here on my site… bashing me is not welcomed.

Thing is, I don’t do what I do to please everyone and I don’t have to. All of the blogging, social networking, youtubing and the music… I don’t really do this stuff to make people happy and to satisfy everyone. I like being myself and that’s what I’m about. I’m above haters and negative people. I don’t read what they have to say about me anymore.

It’s crazy, ya know? Negative people will always be around me, you just have to avoid ’em the best you can. I love the internet and all buts trolls and cyber-bullying has always been a huge problem.

There’s no reason for people to do it. I think they do it ’cause they’re either real immature people or they don’t have much going in their life and they take it out on other people. This stuff is mostly done out of envy and jealousy pretty much. Just my observation. They are like little children. Who are being told “no” but can’t take “no” for an answer but they keep it going ’cause they know it bothers you and they find it entertaining.

I don’t have time for haters, trolls and critics. They’re pretty much nothing to me and I could care less what happens to any of them. The things they say about me is just a bunch of misinformation bullshit and lies. Not a lot of it is true. I don’t care how others feel about me.

All I care about is living life. Enjoying it. Being happy. Playing my music. Lifting weights.

I used to be upset of all the trolls, haters and critics but I learned to get used to it. I take that stuff as a compliment these days. They’re just a bunch of crybabies and losers trying to bring me down and I’m not gonna let ’em. Haters don’t bring me down although they try, they make me stronger and more powerful.

A lot of haters, trolls and critics still follow everything I do for whatever reason and I’m actually flattered for all that. They bash and make fun of me ’cause a lot of them find it entertaining and funny. Some of them do it ’cause they get laughs out of it like little children in school. A lot of people find me entertaining in a sarcastic kind of way and they don’t actually support me. Some follow me as a way for them to have comic material… laughing at me and not with me if you know what I mean.

People would also follow my blogging instead of listening to my music which also bothers the hell out of me.

If that’s how some of you wanna treat me so be it.

It’s funny how people think it’s okay to treat me how you want to. It’s funny how they think they can hide behind freedom of speech and get away with it. When I call them out, they usually play innocent victim almost all of the time.

Mostly all the trashtalk is done anonymously. If you have something nasty to say to me, I’m not hard to find. Instead of making an anonymous account in facebook or wordpress, how about having some guts by saying what you say to my face? Feel free to write me hate mail too, I get some of those sometimes as well.

Keep in mind though, people that I ignore all negative and bullshit comments. When you guys do that shit, you’re just wasting your time and life ’cause I don’t read ’em. I just ignore ’em and delete ’em when bullshit comments come in. I treat facebook and youtube the same way. It’s just my way of ignoring the negatives and focusing on the positives.

I don’t do this to attract trolls and negative people. I do all of these things for me. I like to be honest and real. That’s what I’m all about. Telling the truth which most of you out there don’t know about. I’ll speak on anything I please. It’s my blog and you don’t have to read if you don’t like me. It’s all up to you.

Do you realize you are wasting your time and life focusing on someone you don’t like? Think of all the things you could have done better in your life after all the several years wasted making fun of and bullying me? Find better things to do guys. Spend time with your family, play your music, enjoy life, work your day jobs, and do better things than focus on me but nope. You guys get too obsessed and addicted to making fun of me — you can’t help yourselves. I’ve dealt with people like this for years so I’m used to it.

Negative people are nothing to me. I don’t care if people don’t like me, my music, my blogging or whatever I do. Jump off a building or whatever. I know I can easily be made fun of and know I can be a dislikable guy by some but again, I don’t give a fuck. I don’t waste time focusing on people I don’t like. I get ’em out of my life immediately. I ignore people I dislike and act like they’re dead to me. I’m very good at pretending that certain people don’t exist to me so just to be aware. It’s a waste of time to express your anger and lose your temper at people you don’t like. I just ignore ’em that’s what I do.

This is why I’m strict at moderating… try to understand where I’m coming from. It’s just my way of eliminating negative people, trolls and critics. I don’t need to read that stuff. Thank you.

Kev

I know I repeatedly said that I wouldn’t go for the nightclub and bar scene to pick up women but maybe I should try the nightclub to see how it goes. According to this guy aka the PlayerSupreme, he says that the best places to pick up women is in a nightclub. Not at a bar. Not at a bookstore or a coffeehouse. He says the nightclub. You know… nightclubs with all the cool lights, the dance floor and all kinds of dance/techno music playing.

The more I watch his videos and listen to his advice, I’m beginning to think that I should really try the nightclub. There are a few nightclubs in the town of Saratoga Springs. One nightclub that I know about is called the Vapor nightclub and I know right exactly where that is.

I would like to try and go to a nightclub but I would have to go with someone ’cause I wouldn’t know how to get there since I don’t drive currently.

He also says that the reason most guys don’t succeed in dating ’cause most of us fear rejection. Maybe that’s a huge reason I don’t have much experience with women ’cause I fear rejection. I feel too insecure with myself. I gotta stop that and knock it off.

Not only that I gotta work on my confidence which is what I’m working on and trying to get better at. I also gotta change the way I look and the way I dress. That’s pretty much why I got into bodybuilding like 4 or 5 years ago ’cause I got into it hoping to attract more ladies. I’m also trying to keep my hair real short and try to stay clean-shaven the best I can. I also gotta change the way I dress too.

One thing, I gotta stop wearing are t-shirts with rock bands, wrestlers and superhero characters on the front of it. I gotta wear clothing that’ll attract women. Not suits and ties but nice clothing. I gotta find nice shirts and nice pants. I’m sure I can find plenty of nice shirts at clothing stores at the mall and I think I will go clothes shopping soon which I haven’t done in a long time.

I also gotta get my life together like get a job and a license/car… maybe that’ll help me get my chances of getting women. That stuff is getting worked on too.

I also love this guy’s advice that the key to getting rid of shyness around women is “biting the bullet and going for it”… that’s what he said on this video. If you like a woman, shouldn’t be that hard to approach her. If you get rejected, who cares, it’s not the end of the world. There are women everywhere. This guy tries to teach you that he doesn’t want you to get hurt when you get rejected.

As you can see, I am working on trying to improve myself. I’ll confess it that there are things in my life that needs to get worked on and I’m doing it.

This guy’s channel is very good. He’s the best dating coach in youtube. He woke me up on a lot of things. His channel is aimed at men who are “players” but still a very good channel for guys who are struggling with women.

Watch this video below if you’d like. Good stuff.

Kev

From the Itunes store, I purchased three new albums this week. I recently bought: Sharon Van Etten’s new album “Are We There”, Neil Young’s “A Letter Home” and Al Di Meola “All Your Life” (A Tribute To The Beatles). I’ll listen to these three albums this weekend and will give each one a brief review. I know the Al Di Meola Beatle’s album came out last year but that’s another album of his I always wanted to hear so I decided to grab that one. I wanna get into more of Al Di Meola’s music ’cause he’s really inspiring me and I’ve been loving his music more and more. I’ll probably get more of his albums this summer.

I’ve been getting a lot of albums from Itunes lately ’cause the CD market is pretty dead obviously. You can still buy CD’s at record stores but you can only find latest albums of certain bands and artists. If you want an older album by your favorite band, you won’t be able to find those in record stores anymore. You’ll have to go to Itunes for that. That’s why I bought like 8 albums from the Allman Brothers in Itunes ’cause I know I’m never gonna find the CD at record stores like Best Buy, F.Y.E., etc.

Before the days of Apple and Itunes, the CD market was a big deal… you were able to find anything and everything you want but not anymore.

I don’t buy new albums too much. Only once in a blue moon I’ll buy a new album. I’ve been getting a lot of older stuff from Itunes since you won’t find that stuff in record stores anymore. Itunes is pretty much the record store these days.

I’m not a big fan of Itunes like most but I buy albums there anyway ’cause there is no other places where I can find music. When I’m not playing guitar, I love listening to music by other bands & artists. I like listening to music to relax and to help me think. Helps get my mind off of things.

I’ve been a music lover ever since I was a child so I’ve seen how the music industry changed over the years. I’ve seen how it went from vinyl to cassette to Compact Disc and now the world of MP3 players have taken over. I don’t think a new format will come around anytime soon. Apple and Itunes will be around for many years up ahead.

Ke

If you think the trashtalk of Obama by men can get pretty bad, wait until you see what the women write about Obama. Women can get 10x’s more nastier about Obama than men can be. Women are obviously smarter than men. If you try to debate and argue with a woman who is anti-Obama, she would probably win. LOL!!! You wouldn’t be able to handle her. I’ll admit that men are pretty weak at Obama trash-talking but women are way better at it.

I love reading women’s posts about Obama in facebook… in the Conservative forums. It’s entertaining stuff.

I think it’ll be cool to date a woman who is anti-Obama too. Women despise Obama just as much as the men do. They are better debaters than men are, for sure.

Kev

I learned from a few youtube dating videos and I saw a video where it explained that “Women do the choosing” in dating and it’s true sadly. Dating guru’s in youtube want to make it look like that men have the power to get any woman you want but that’s all really bullshit. I’ll repeat that women do the choosing. They choose what guy they want to like and they choose what guy they want to fall in love with. It’s sad but that’s the way it is. I learned from another dating video that you also don’t wanna go out there chasing random women. This certain dating coach in youtube says that you only wanna go for the women who have an interest in you.

When women give you direct eye contact and smile… those are the ones you wanna go for. When she touches you or wants you to give her a hug, those are the ones you wanna go for. When she does those things that means she probably has a love interest in you and probably has sexual attraction to you. Going for the women who give you direct eye contact is probably the best idea.

You don’t wanna go after random chicks in public places ’cause chances are, she doesn’t wanna be bothered and she’ll probably walk away and ignore you.

Like I said before, I don’t think I’ll do long distance dating on the internet and I don’t think I’ll pick up women from bars/clubs either. I pretty much want to try to hook up with women locally like in my hometown of Greenwich. Even though I live in a small town which nothing much to do, there are tons of women all over the place.

I do meet women at local band shows sometimes and I do meet women through friends of certain family members. I gotta find places in town where women go. A coffee shop is a nice idea. There isn’t a Starbucks in Greenwich yet but there are local business’s that have coffee shops around here. There are a lot of women who go to places like Dunkin’ Donuts, Stewarts, Hannaford Grocery Store, etc. As you stand in the line waiting for the cashier if there are women standing in line, you can try to strike up a conversation. Maybe the public library is not a bad idea but again, women don’t wanna be bothered at a library ’cause they’ll be there to read and study or whatever but there maybe a trick to strike up a conversation as long you whisper. Maybe you can help them find a book they’re looking for or something like that or you could help them study. I gotta find things to do.

There is a bar room in Greenwich called the Old Station Inn but I freakin’ hate that place. A lot of women go there too but that place isn’t a great place to meet up women unless you wanna drunk ass woman to take home for a one night stand? Not really my thing, that’s why I wanna stay away from picking up women at bars and nightclubs. I don’t think I can handle it, ya know?

I gotta find places to meet women where there is no alcohol involved. I could join a Yoga class at the Y or something like that. That’s actually not a bad idea at all! I’ve always wanted to learn Yoga and I think there are Yoga classes at the Y. I know a lot of women do those exercise classes at the Y ’cause I see gorgeous women go to those classes at the Y every time I go to the gym.

I also learned that you don’t wanna go after your one woman crush. You wanna go after like 10 women or more and chances are one of them will wanna go out with you.

It’s sad that women do the choosing but it is what it is. I know this because I’ve had plenty of crushes on women over the years who had no interest in me in return whatsoever. When she gives you direct eye contact, talking to you, wants you to hug her or whatever that means she has quite a liking for you. When you go on a first date with her, that means she has accepted you for who you are. When you see women giving you eye contact and smiling, that means she wants you to go over and see what it’s all about.

Next time a woman appears interested in me, I won’t ignore her next time. I’ll just walk up to her and say, “hi, what’s up?”. That’s all I gotta do. Believe me, I’ve had women who appeared interested in me before but I just didn’t care to talk to her. No more of that. I gotta be a man and stop acting like a coward.

While there are women all over Greenwich, you may not find a perfect 10 around here but you will see hot and beautiful women around here. They are around believe it or not. Beautiful women are everywhere. I don’t have to date just beautiful woman. I’ll take an average and pretty looking one, sure. I’m more worried about her personality than looks, though. I hope to find one who’s big into music and movies likes me. Somebody with similar interests.

Kev

I know I have been pretty silent on the Elliot Rodger shootout tragedy in Santa Barbara so I thought I would give my honest thoughts on this now to get it out of the way. Before the shootout… Elliot was an online vlogger who ranted about how tough his love and sex life was. I did watch his disturbing videos in youtube. He ranted about being a virgin and how girls wouldn’t want to date or have sex wit him and stuff like that. He was also blaming the women and people for his women problems. I did watch his “retribution” video which was pretty frightening and disturbing; however, he is right on a lot of things that women do make the dating game difficult on men, admittedly.

After this tragedy, this sparked an online debate with other men who are having troubles with women.

I don’t have much experience with women myself… hardly any in fact. I used to be proud of living the single life and I’ve had troubles with women myself over the years. I didn’t have any serious girlfriends throughout my high school years. After high school, I may have went out with a few women here and there but they were nothing serious and they didn’t work out. So I stopped the dating game and gave up again.

I’ll have to publicly admit that I am starting to regret living the single life and that’s why I’m finally starting to do something about it. Throughout the years, I have had a hard time understanding women. I didn’t know how they work and how they think. I’ll admit that I have had a fear of them. I was very shy of them. Maybe I didn’t think they would find me good looking and was afraid of how they would take my scoliosis. I’ve had plenty of crushes with girls over the years but most of them didn’t have an interest in me in return. I’ve made plenty of mistakes with women over the years myself. I’ve also had plenty of women who appeared to be interested in me but I didn’t have the guts to talk to her… too shy. I’ve had plenty of missed opportunities as well.

So I finally decided to do something about it by learning more about women. On how they work and how they think so I started reading books about dating, e-books, watching dating coaches in youtube. I’ve also admittedly been reading fictional romance novels and erotica stories. I know mostly women read romance and erotica stuff but I read that stuff as for research material only as a way for me to help understand how women work and think.

I may have troubles with women myself but I’m not letting the guilt and depression bring me down for it. I learned to stay positive and strong about it. If you’re having troubles with women, you gotta do something about it. You can’t blame it on other people and take it out on others like Elliot Rodger just did. If you’re having troubles with women, you gotta learn how to do it. That’s what I’ve been doing.

I’ve been practicing my confidence around women and my fear with women is just about gone pretty much. I have no problem talking to them anymore. I am learning that women are easy and down to earth. I’m just learning that women aren’t all that difficult at all. I’m learning that women won’t bite. It’s not that hard to talk to her at all. You got something on your mind, have some balls and say to her. I have no problem telling a woman that’s she’s beautiful to her face. They really love being told that, believe me.

It can’t be that hard to get a woman to accept a first date with you and it also can’t be that hard to get her to have sex with you. You just gotta know how to do it and know how to talk to them.

I also wanna bring up that I am not a “wait until after marriage” kind of guy when it comes to sleeping with women. I am interested in sleeping with women and sex, absolutely, I am only going to do that stuff with the right woman. It’s gotta be about true love for me.

I used to believe that women wouldn’t find me attractive and good-looking but now I’m thinking they really do. I am starting to have more and more women approach me these days. Not sure what it is. Maybe it’s my muscular physique is what’s doing it? I don’t know…

The key to getting women is being positive about it. That’s what I’ve been working on. Not being negative with myself and being positive that I can do this and hook up with any woman I want. Can’t be that hard. You just gotta learn how to lead, be confident, and make her feel safe. Do those things, she’ll go out with you.

I have no problem talking to women now, I just gotta have guts and ask her for her phone number and ask her out. Next goal. I should definitely have what it takes to hook up with beautiful and hot women. I just gotta prove everyone wrong and do it. I gotta do this. This year, get a girlfriend. I wanna settle in with somebody before I get any older. I don’t wanna do the online dating thing, the goal is to meet women at public places and grow my confidence. I gotta stop being shy around women and that’s what I’ve been working on.

Growing confidence and learning about women is definitely a learning and practice skill. Definitely takes time. My goal is to get married and find the love of my life. I don’t think I will sleep around different women. I don’t think I will be the player type at all.

Kev

So summer is just about here and I figure I would write a small list of films that I plan on seeing this summer. Well, one film I’m looking forward to is “Maleficient” w/Angelina Jolie which I am planning on seeing next week, probably Tuesday.

Here is a list of other films I plan on seeing this summer…

• Expendables 3
• Deliver Us From Evil
• The Purge: Anarchy
• Get On Up (the James Brown biopic film)
• Sin City: A Dame To Kill For
• Lucy (w/ Scarlett Johansson)

That’s pretty much it, really. I think I’m gonna pass on the new “Ninja Turtles” and the new “Transformers” film and wait for rental on those two.

Kev

I decided to do a short video speech on the future of Star Trek. There are no edits during the speech this time. I did this speech all in one take. No lie.

Enjoy!

Kev

I have tons of ideas for upcoming videoblogs. Like I said, I’m thinking of doing videoblogs like once or twice a week. Speak on a topic that’s worth speaking. Some music topics I can think of… I could talk about the Allman Brothers on how great they are, I’m planning on making a video to help defend Metallica and to talk about Led Zeppelin ripping off other songs. Those are a few ideas. I’m also thinking of doing a top 10 albums of all time video or talk about the kind of music I’m listening to these days. Maybe I’ll give some guitar lessons too!

I also came up with an idea of a self-interview.

I’ll admit that I have a bit of a speech impediment but not too bad. I’ve been working on my speaking voice. I think I spoke pretty well on that Benghazi video I did. I tried my best to speak every word clearly. I have been working on my speech more and practicing. I have been practicing speaking by reading stuff aloud to myself.

I have found that video speeches are a lot of fun and thinking I’m definitely gonna do it a lot more. Do reviews, thoughts, opinions, and rants about various topics.

Videoblogs are a popular thing in youtube and I wanna join the bandwagon. So expect more upcoming videoblogs from me this summer. It really is a good way to speak your mind. More people will listen to you on video than a blog post on the internet.

Kev