The one thing that people seem to enjoy doing, is that they “think”, that telling the truth about me, is putting me down. Some like to tell me how I’m not liked by a lot of people. They would tell me stuff about the hateful videos in youtube aimed at me, the google search engine, and all the Brock hate  you see on the internet. People would also tell me about my past about the way I posted on forums over the years. It’s not like I haven’t heard all that stuff before, and people has repeatedly said this stuff to me for years, but quite frankly, I don’t give a shit. I get called a lot of things like egomaniac, attention whore, troll, hypocrite, etc. All of those things. Just to correct you on one thing, that none of this hurts or upsets me. So stop acting like you guys are better and tougher than me ’cause you’re not.

I’m just being me, and there is no crime in that.

I learned that if you want to go forward in your music dreams, you must ignore the bullshit completely, and I’m learning to do better. Yes, I know that when I get myself back out there musically, I’m probably going to get even more haters, but that’s fine. One thing to keep in mind though, that just because there’s so much negative publicity about me online, doesn’t mean a fanbase doesn’t exist. I have a personal facebook, and the people in that page backs my music, all the time. That’s how you can tell you have supporters. Not just the internet, people have told me in person that they think I’m a good musician as well.

You have to believe in yourself, not listen to negative people who want to doubt you and destroy you. Deep down, they’re probably jealous, nothing more. I’ve dealt with all kinds of negative bullshit throughout my musical life with other musicians and people in the scene, but that’s still not stopping me from doing what I love. I’m a musician, and that’s what I do. Play music. That’s kind of the tough part about being a local musician ’cause you’re always going to get people shooting down your dreams and take it away from you. The trick to keep going in music, is not give a shit about anybody. Period.

Like the old saying goes, “Haters are gonna hate”.

Kev

It may not seem like it, but I do have a pretty good following with my music. I still have plenty of people who still have my back and stayed loyal to me. I think it seems this way because I haven’t gotten much press in the music scene myself, and feel I have been one of those overlooked artists in this area. Yes, there are people that really enjoy my music, and I’m not just talking about other musicians or family members. I probably won’t give up the singing. I’ll just do my best to improve my singing, which is what I’m working on. Practicing vocal exercises and teaching myself vocals lessons, on my own. I’m trying to work on singing every word clearly too, and I believe that is improving a bit.

There’s going to be negative people that will want to act like your music career is nothing, but don’t listen to those people. You want to believe in the people who support you. I wouldn’t still be doing this if it weren’t for my true fans. This is why I’m working out a comeback for 2013. I will definitely try to gig a lot more often that year.

That’s the funny thing about being a musician. You can never tell how many people actually like you out there, and believe me, there will be people out there who enjoy your music. You just never know how many is listening!

I took time off from songwriting to improve my talent even more. Gonna have to start writing lyrics again. I want to make a professionally made full band album with a CD cover, with great sound quality, and all but that’s gonna take some time and money. As soon as I get a job (still job hunting), I’ll start saving money for studio time and CD pressing/duplication. Making my first real album has always been my dream, it’s the budget that’s the problem.

Thanks for the true support. I promise, I’ll get myself back out there. I don’t want to keep you waiting any longer for a Brock comeback.

Kev